haha burn! you're self centered and a scummy piece of shit.

tumblr.

littlederekbigcity.tumblr.com/

peace.

too bright to see, too loud to hear

venom and hope.

"I hope you're not well, I hope things aren't fine.
I hope your body dies, long before your mind.
I hope you reach for help with hands that refuse to reach.
I hope you try to scream with a voice that just won't scream.
I sincerely hope your last breath is mine."

l0l irl,

suh kEwl.

srsly?

happy with everything lately.

please.

pine tree state.

you're my north star when i'm lost and far away.

forever fucked.

All we've got is nothing. The road we chose was long, and far too hard. And the sight of you brings no rest. Just more to bear and everything to lose. This silence says it all, and I wish I'd never heard. But I've been tired for so long now, and nothing seems to matter anymore. So sing me to sleep with a lullaby of lies, because I'm broken now, lying on an empty floor. And all I got was "forever". This fire burns with hope, and fear, and need. But I've seen too many night to ever let it die. Love is only a word. I've searched for answers and all I've found was a liar and a thief in you. Yesterday you saved me from the world. Today you took it all away. How come it's our best years that always end the worst? And they never seem to end. So maybe they were right. It takes some time, but in the end, everyone goes down.

Woke up from a nightmare and tried to go back to sleep. these days it's not the nightmares that are killing me, it's what comes next. at least in nightmares, i know what i'm running from. and i'm scared, but fear seems better than the truth. these days, my dreams are all that's real...it's my life that's all just make believe. and i know how it ends, but i can't help but watch. so caught up, i'm breaking down. it's getting harder to pretend i care where i land. i want to feel, i'm just scared of what that means. i remember when i could smile without feeling like such a liar, i just wish i would have wrote it down. you ask if there's an end in sight...i wish i had an answer. you should have asked me back when i was young. because i've had everything, and all i want is more. when you're sick of standing, you just fall.

Don't know what i would have had to write about if there wasn't you, or if i ever would have wrote at all. they said it wouldn't last... nothing ever does. but you and me, we're different, always were. stuck together forever, whatever that will mean. everything is still all wrong, and we're still all that's real. the only words i've ever meant was when i said i'd do anything for you. see, our claws stretch deep inside, and that's where they'll stay. you say you're lucky you have me, but i had nothing before you had me... nothing to care about and no songs to sing. i've seen the world singing songs about you. we said we'd see the world, you gave it to me. so we're stuck together forever, you and me. stuck together forever, no matter what that means.

resolution.

We walk in circles. We love in circles. We talk in circles. We live in circles. i can't live like this. i can't keep living this. we're always moving on, always moving back. back to the same place. so familiar, but it isn't home... just where we come to forget. how many times can you write the same song in a different way? how many times can you live the same life on a different day? nobody lives in circles, they just forget. they just survive.

we live in circles, the same people with different faces. we sing the same songs in different keys. we love in circles, a little less with every turn. i've never loved like that before, and i don't think i will again. and it's coming back again, it's ending where it started. and i'd give everything to do it all again. you never love like that again (the first time), and the longer that you live, the less you feel alive. and we don't die for anything anymore. i'd kill to feel like that again, but i'm never going to feel like that again. so move on, hold on, or fucking fake it. either way, we're losing. either way i'm losing.

remember when this was everything? in a way, it still is. i want to feel that way again. but you don't feel in circles, you just live. you just fall. i'll find it again, in a different place. in a different time, with a different face. i'll keep moving, because i've got to keep moving. just take whatever's left. my heart is dry. this is my last breath. this used to be everything. i gave everything.

goodbye.21709

Have Heart- the machinist

one nine nine four.

i can't wait for this dvd documentary.

blink 182 #3

They announced the reunion on the grammys a few minutes ago. finally. and not just a reunion, a tour, or anything but they are back. a band once again.

"Hi. We're blink-182. This past week there’ve been a lot of questions about the current status of the band, and we wanted you to hear it straight from us. To put it simply, We're back. We mean, really back. Picking up where we left off and then some. In the studio writing and recording a new album. Preparing to tour the world yet again. Friendships reformed. 17 years deep in our legacy.

Summer 2009.

Thanks and get ready..."

myspace.com/blink182
www.blink182.com

Verse breaks up.

well... months ago it was rumored that verse would break up in february 09. looks like the rumor was true. there was also a rumor of the singer sean murphy breaking edge. Rumors ended up being false, but a few weeks ago he and his gf split ways and "he went out, bought a pack of ciggs, smoked them and got drunk, called me up to tell me and rambled about things then passed out" words from a very reliable source. and now february has come and verse is no more.

hands down one of the best bands ever.

blink 182 #2

supposedly a tour in may with forever the sickest kids?

nothing against forever the sickest kids, but please no.

blink 182

http://www.blink182reunion.com/

yes ive been posting about this so much
but now theres a site.

the nasty.

The Nasty is tim rummo of the Effort's side project.
And it's awesome thrash, and I suggest checking it out.
Bobby from shatter the silence does drums.
Tino from every punk band in the area does guitar.
and Justin from xFENWAYx (haha) on bass.

Go check them out on sunday at the brickhouse.

they also just had tank tops printed, $5 so pick one up.

myspace the nasty

distance.

Mondays I sleep away
Tuesdays I lay awake
Wednesdays are the worst
Thursdays I reminice
Fridays I see your face
And I can breathe

young boy.once a

I was once a young boy never fled too far from home. Now I've lost my name, and misplaced my home. I retreat back to places where I am someone they love. Bright lights serving justice up from above. Everybody thinks they know my name and where I've been. I've got news for you that'll turn your head. I'm not exactly who you think that I've been all along. So shut your fuckin mouth.

I always knew I would be the one to make you believe in sleeping in castles with no guards.

I flee from situations when I know that I've done wrong. But face to face with faith he strings me along. I'll shoot for the moon so long as you raise your arms too. My marksmanship is perfect. My aim is true. Hitting targets marked their rage all over mother's glow. Smoking out the world atop my throne. I take the names of victims that I've gunned down on my own. I please with love and ease, so I aim for gold.

fall out boy.

fall out boy drummer loves trap them.
so good.

deathwish inc.

heavier than heaven,

lonelier than god.

understatement.

New Found Glory - Understatement (Live) from marceatsworld on Vimeo.

fuck you geraldo.

sunday@brickhouse.

ponch singing guns up!

snaps5.

here's some pics from monday morning.

arizona.

here i come! got my ticket today. i can't wait.

work!

really bored at work, and just tech decking all night.
and really cold so im wearing my crew neck.

cruel hand.

best shirt ever?

Psalm 63:6-7

I lie awake thinking of you, meditating on you through the night. Because you are my helper, I sing for joy in the shadow of your wings.

i'm not one for this shit at all, whatevs. i like it.

100 post.

colby is eating ice cream right now with the enemy. hmmm... reminds me of the mighty ducks.

i'm back at work. i hate the first day back so much, i just wanna go home and sleep! the movie i got from netflix doesnt work. my laptop doesnt even read that theres a disc. awesome. so i sent a request to netflix for another copy. which was dumb since ive already seen this movie.

and im ordering pizza right now. colby will be on his way in a little bit after ice cream.

andddddd girls suck!

twitter.

i started a twitter account.

follow _djames at http://twitter.com

mierable at best.

Miserable at Best - Music Video

canada.

so instead of new ipswich we have come to canada. haha yes a big fucking difference in location. but we wanted to do something big. we're leaving tuesday morning. no phones or anything so if you need us comment us online or something! we will be checking rarely though.

OH AND I WON MY EBAY ITEM!! FUCK YOU.

withdrawn.

phoenix arizona hardcore. 16,17,and two 19 year olds. some of the best dudes. and mason, thank
you for finding out how to get a free brazzers account<3

but seriously, go download this ep, it's ridiculous.
download here

remembering sunday.

He woke up from dreaming and put on his shoes. Started making his way past two in the morning. He hasn't been sober for days.

Leaning now into the breeze. Remembering Sunday, he falls to his knees. They had breakfast together, but two eggs don't last like the feeling of what he needs. Now this place seems familiar to him. She pulled on his hand with a devilish grin. She led him upstairs. Left him dying to get in.

Forgive me, I'm trying to find my calling, I'm calling at night. I don't mean to be a bother, but have you seen this girl? She's been running through my dreams, and it's driving me crazy. I'm gonna ask her to marry me. Even though she doesn't believe in love, he's determined to call her bluff. Who could deny these butterflies? They're filling his gut.

Waking the neighbors, unfamiliar faces. He pleads, oh he tries. But he's only denied. Now he's dying to get inside.

The neighbors said she moved away. Funny how it rained all day. I didn't think much of it then. But it's starting to all make sense. I can see now that all of these clouds are following me in my desperate endeavor, to find my whoever, wherever she may be.

I'm not coming back, I've done something so terrible. I'm terrified to speak. But you'd expect that from me. I'm mixed up, I'll be blunt. Now the rain is just washing you out of my hair and out of my mind. Keeping an eye on the world, so many thousands of feet off the ground. I'm over you now. I'm at home in the clouds towering over your head.

Well I guess I'll go home now.

Iconoclasm.

This post is for you Adam. You said you didn't have the cd and I just remembered and so I dont forget I will post it for you, Cause who knows when I will get to send it to you.

The Effort- Iconoclasm (2008)
download

mmhmmm.

every morning I wake up looking down on a day so shallow that I can't even drown.

red ink.

I think I'm allergic to red tattoo ink. It never seems to heal well on me. And it's the only part that scabs. It's such a pain in the ass.

new years2.

found some more pics!

Snaps4.

More to comeeeee.
Today was a long day. Got out of work at 7am. Mom made big breakfast. Went and met up with colby and people. Did a bunch of shit. Tattoos, bowling, food, hot cocoa, random shit. Tomorrow will be just as good. Hopefully better.

Christmas Eve.

Hahah Colby found this picture earlier, and we don't remember it being taken at all. Weird!

Josh is playing rockband in the back.

heaven.

Heaven is not a place on my mind. I'm just controlled by the other things inside. God's the only one who can judge me. I haven't met him yet so you can take a seat. My mind is racing, eyes in a haze. But I'm still controlled by other things. Born into a world that doesn't feel. Born into a world that barely seems real. Born into a world that will never see the lies in the ways that we live. My only hope is that one day this world will open its eyes and see. My only hope is that one day this world will recognize me. I know what I have to do, but knowings not enough. I know what I have to do, but how do I keep messing up? Everyday that I wake I keep making the same mistakes. Burn the houses that use to be home because I'm not living for tomorrow.

my night.

has consisted of these things!














whatevs!














textin my fav people!














drinking coke.














watching the best movie.
so if you havn't seen. you are gay.














keepin my hands clean!
i miss ponch.

R.I.P.

A buddy from high school shot himself in the head a couple days ago. I still can't believe it. I remember sitting in English class with Mr. Soffron and listening to green day with him all the time, and throwing food at people during lunch. Fuck. I never would have though of him as a person to do this. Fuck.

R.I.P. Alex Doyle.

Last(post of the night).fm

Incase you ever wonder what I am listening to at work when I am bored as fuck. This is last weeks top artists, add me check it out. Last.fm rules.