forever fucked.

All we've got is nothing. The road we chose was long, and far too hard. And the sight of you brings no rest. Just more to bear and everything to lose. This silence says it all, and I wish I'd never heard. But I've been tired for so long now, and nothing seems to matter anymore. So sing me to sleep with a lullaby of lies, because I'm broken now, lying on an empty floor. And all I got was "forever". This fire burns with hope, and fear, and need. But I've seen too many night to ever let it die. Love is only a word. I've searched for answers and all I've found was a liar and a thief in you. Yesterday you saved me from the world. Today you took it all away. How come it's our best years that always end the worst? And they never seem to end. So maybe they were right. It takes some time, but in the end, everyone goes down.

Woke up from a nightmare and tried to go back to sleep. these days it's not the nightmares that are killing me, it's what comes next. at least in nightmares, i know what i'm running from. and i'm scared, but fear seems better than the truth. these days, my dreams are all that's real...it's my life that's all just make believe. and i know how it ends, but i can't help but watch. so caught up, i'm breaking down. it's getting harder to pretend i care where i land. i want to feel, i'm just scared of what that means. i remember when i could smile without feeling like such a liar, i just wish i would have wrote it down. you ask if there's an end in sight...i wish i had an answer. you should have asked me back when i was young. because i've had everything, and all i want is more. when you're sick of standing, you just fall.

Don't know what i would have had to write about if there wasn't you, or if i ever would have wrote at all. they said it wouldn't last... nothing ever does. but you and me, we're different, always were. stuck together forever, whatever that will mean. everything is still all wrong, and we're still all that's real. the only words i've ever meant was when i said i'd do anything for you. see, our claws stretch deep inside, and that's where they'll stay. you say you're lucky you have me, but i had nothing before you had me... nothing to care about and no songs to sing. i've seen the world singing songs about you. we said we'd see the world, you gave it to me. so we're stuck together forever, you and me. stuck together forever, no matter what that means.